Saxo.. a farewell

I now know you guys on here are either police or spooks(I finally understand the username 'ghost')..

Obviously these last couple of months has devastated me, I cannot believe I'm viewed as such a dangerous individual.. I'm crushed.

I apologise thoroughly for my online activity and really feel misunderstood in some accusations, certainly it being alluded I'm attracted to young boys and the racial accusations. Some young girls, yes, I'm ashamed to say I feel attraction towards, I cannot help it, but I've NEVER physically done anything about it in the real world, and never would have. If it's been alleged I have ever ***ually assaulted anyone, I swear to you the accusation is false.

My absolute preference would always have been to be with a woman of my own age, but I'm chronically impotent, I can never have had a normal *** life like anyone else can, thus this leading me into a world of total depression, anger and all I had was fantasy to attempt to satisfy me.

I honestly believed 90% of my online **** activity to be legal .. if that was not the case, then that was naivity on my part, not a deliberate breaking of the law.

I've had a fairly miserable life, horrible parents(I really hoped to be a father to make up for this in some way towards my own), but it was never meant to be.

Football has been my only beacon of light in life, both playing and spectating. I thank you to those on here that despised me, but still took the time to engage me in footy chat.

I'm sorry for what I am.

Goodbye.

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Originally Posted by Saxo1man41

I now know you guys on here are either police or spooks(I finally understand the username 'ghost')..

Obviously these last couple of months has devastated me, I cannot believe I'm viewed as such a dangerous individual.. I'm crushed.

I apologise thoroughly for my online activity and really feel misunderstood in some accusations, certainly it being alluded I'm attracted to young boys and the racial accusations. Some young girls, yes, I'm ashamed to say I feel attraction towards, I cannot help it, but I've NEVER physically done anything about it in the real world, and never would have. If it's been alleged I have ever ***ually assaulted anyone, I swear to you the accusation is false.

My absolute preference would always have been to be with a woman of my own age, but I'm chronically impotent, I can never have had a normal *** life like anyone else can, thus this leading me into a world of total depression, anger and all I had was fantasy to attempt to satisfy me.

I honestly believed 90% of my online **** activity to be legal .. if that was not the case, then that was naivity on my part, not a deliberate breaking of the law.

I've had a fairly miserable life, horrible parents(I really hoped to be a father to make up for this in some way towards my own), but it was never meant to be.

Football has been my only beacon of light in life, both playing and spectating. I thank you to those on here that despised me, but still took the time to engage me in footy chat.

I'm sorry for what I am.

Goodbye.

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I don't know what to say to that, but I do hope your ok.
We are here to chat if you need anything. No matter what you have going on inside your head, we don't have that opinion. There are good people on here, so you should share more than do this. Not having a go, merley making a suggestion.
Use this place as an oasis away from the problems you have.

I'm not usually lost for words(!), but this has floored me.
If anyone knows Saxo's real name, is it possible to contact some sort of social services agency, to ask for help on his behalf?
This is totally beyond the remit of a football forum.

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Originally Posted by AucklandRover

I'm not usually lost for words(!), but this has floored me.
If anyone knows Saxo's real name, is it possible to contact some sort of social services agency, to ask for help on his behalf?
This is totally beyond the remit of a football forum.

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My real name is James Peter brown.. I have been made aware I have been being poisoned by British government spooks for many years, presumably for being seen as a pedofile, ***ual.deviant and racist. I have not very long left to live now, so I really have nothing to lose by posting this.

As I say, I dispute much alleged of me, but it really doesn't matter now.

Saxo (James) - are you receiving any medical help?
Being and feeling alone is the worst possible thing for someone in your position.
Do you have a GP who could refer you?

James, will you consider chatting to me away from here?