I think that it's because I've had it drilled into me from a young age that I was a thick c@#t tbh Frank,I've never let it stop me plodding through life and I've held down a job since I was 16 and I've only had two jobs in life so I must have be good at them,some people want to be a success in life,be remembered,be the best in class or work or whatever,be the top dog amongst their friends,non of that bothers me,I'm happy being on my own not bothering anyone,it's ok to leave your mark on the world I suppose as long as you don't leave a stain