That is how I feel at the moment.... not at the state of the club / team. I have made my peace with that, I know we are going down and have fully accepted it... it was obvious the day Rafa left.


What has me devastated, is that I no longer eat, sleep, breathe NUFC.

I always believed it was for life....

I have missed the last 20 home league games, and I am still in mourning for the love I have lost...

But i rarely feel anything other than frustration at what might have been and just shrug my shoulders and move on when we lose.

Better to have loved and lost and all that....