Ulzanas Raid.

This film was on recently, its a x film, no, hold that an xx. Its about Indians in the west going a bit funny, like they had been abused, one too many times, and going on a killing spree. They captured a settler, and lit a fire around his, ummm, no lets stop there.

Burt Lancaster was in it, we dont get real men as actors anymore, we get half breeds, half male half female. Anyway, as the trap closes, a trap that didnt work, he gets shot to hell, but still lived when the troops came.

The commander wanted to put him on a wagon to take him to a fort, he said no. They put up some shade, he asked for cigarrettes, and they left him to die as he asked.

Thats where United fans are now. Tired, shot to hell. Dying. The side is nothing more than a nuisance to the opposition.

It sounds to me thst Cambridge fans are the hero in this story though Frank,they’ve been tortured and endured years of pain and anguish but they’ve did it their way,not the Sid Vicious way either but the Old Blue Eyes way and nobody can take tfst away from them,the true Utd fans are the Burt Lancaster of the story and you are the Indians trying to torture every one else into giving up,I salute them for their bravery and never giving up on Cambridge and join in with them as they start to sing…

“And now the end is near
And so I face the final curtain
My friends ill say it clear
I’ll state my case of which I’m certain
I’ve lived a life that’s full
I’ve traveled each and every byway
But more,much more than this
I did it myyyyyy way”

Crikey, you are correct, i hadnt thought of the Indians as myself, but its true. The only difference is that i cant crucify the club, burn genitals with the small fire burning the face, or cut out someones liver and play football with it.

Psychologically ive given it a good try.

The problem with being an Indian is that i will lose, i dont do that. In time i will win its nailed on, the club will get relegated this season, and slide into obscurity, the ground will be sold by Barry, and all will move on. The thought that Barry wont sell the ground is absurd, its worth seroius money.

More as time goes on, hes buying that, no pun intended.

Why are you on the fans side, are the sins committed against them, myself not enough?, surely if that was the County story, you would be like me.

A rebel, two fingers too immorality, cheating, corruption, i am so surprised at you. The fans are duped, blinded by stupid love, taken advantage of, abused, made fools of, humiliated, robbed.

Love does that, keeps you coming back for more, do United fans not have any sense of enough is enough? No. Even a small nod from the chairman is enough. Giving up, as you say, is common sense.

To continue supporting this is silly. Its like a trooper in 1885 abusing an Indian, and the Indian says thankyou. The fans and you are enabling a crime. Ive got the Wisbech programme but i keep putting off watching it.

In a way im an Indian, a good one trying to open eyes, the real Indian is Barry, Ulzana, experiencing orgasms at brutality.

If it was a spaghetti western it would be the good,the bad and the ugly Frank,you would fancy yourself as the good but in reality you are the ugly,you would be Tuco who always thinks that he’s in the right and who hates the man with no name,yes Clint Eastwood would portray the fans of the club,a decent man who is fighting wrong against right,no doubt you think that this is you but no,you want the buried gold all fir yourself,once you had it you would probably just throw it away and look for some other buried treasure to vent your anger on,you didn’t want the gold but you just had to have it just as you don’t whst to support Cambridge but you don’t want anyone else to either

Tuco had a brother who he loved but didn’t acknowledge it,his brother was a priest who did good and this is also you Frank,you know that you should not criticise your brother (the Catholic Church) but you do just as Tuco does,you can’t go through life hanging on the end of a rope hoping that Clint Eastwood doesn’t miss with that shot to cut him down because one day he may miss

Then there’s me,I’m the captain who hates his life protecting a bridge that he doesn’t care for,slowly drinking himself to sn early grave until you,Clint and Lee van Cleef come along to blow the bridge up before die,tbh you will probably go through my wallet as I pass away but that’s ok because that’s what Tuco would have done

Its not worth going through your wallet, what youve got i spend in a day. Are you drunk? its 10-49.

I only drink in the evening Frank,alcohol never touches my lips during daylight hours in case I need to drive my car,just remember the end of the good,bad and ugly,there’s a Mexican standoff and Tuco is hanging from a rope hoping that somebody will shot him down,it won’t be Angel Eyes so it’s Clint (the fans) who will give you that final chance,to redeem yourself Frank,get down the Abbey while you can because one day the bullet will miss

Ha, one day the bullet will miss, and that day gets closer whatever i do. Do you fear dying? theres no need, being alive is like being flayed, and you cant escape.

Not alive anyway.

No I can honestly say that I’m not afraid of dying,infact I can’t wait to see what awaits in next episode but there’s always a worry that I will be going downstairs instead of up,I’ve already made preparations for my next journey,funeral organised and instructions for ashes,I even erased all photos,messages and data from my phone every night in anticipation for that day that awaits us all

Thats admirable, youve actually acted on it, i havent got that far yet, actually booking it. As we both know there is a downstairs, not only in the bible but in reality, near death survivors report that there are worse places than this.

What have you got to fear, ?, i have been through my bad deeds and have asked for forgiveness, the pain i have caused gives me serious grief, i am ready to roast for that, maybe my contrition now may mean a better time who knows. We are all sinners. I dont need a god to tell me.

That is one oif the benefits of age, having time to think and repent. There is one person i will kneel to, and not complain whatever the judgemeent is. There are many though that are evil ....all the time, my sins are few, but there. All things are two edged, leaving this place means a new life, we become part of the whole, loved and cherished like a young child.

Many look forward to dying, Mary Neal didnt want to come back even though she had a family to bring up. What have you learnt??? how have you changed?, i am not the person i was at 18, no where near.

Its been a good life, much suffering, much progress, pain is like light and dark, you cant have one without the other.





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I’ve got a lot to fear Frank as I didn’t always chose to go through the narrow gale and sometimes skipped along the wide path before heading back to the narrow gate to begin again

If I passed away today everything would be sorted,I’ve appointed somebody to scatter my ashes somewhere that’s fitting and not to tell my relatives,I’ve told my sisters that this is what I want,one day I was here and the next gone,just get on with doing the housework because I’m on the next chapter of the book of life,as I said I don’t think that I’ve done enough to be in the book into heaven but I have tried

I watched a programme on the History channel about the holocaust and it reported that in the sheds where the Jews was kept before going into the gas chambers they found a message that read If There Is A God Then He Will Have To Beg My Forgiveness which has played on my mind since hearing it,it’s almost proof thst there’s nowhere to go after here,your ashes just get blown in the wind and that’s it,it’s over,I mean how can such unimaginable evils happen if there is a God

Suicide is for cowards or so they say but not by me,I admire them to go through with it and what’s more to be successful,it’s harder than you think and if you fail then it’s the hospital and not A+E but a mental institution which is many steps backward

You are looking after your partner in her time of need Frank,you will be alright I guarantee it,when you go up to St Peter at Heavens gate ask if Chalky made if and laugh if he shakes his head in disappointment