Why???

Why do I care so much. For months now i've tried to convince myself that the premier league can go f*#k themselves NUFC and Mike can do one.... People send me msgs to say we've signed this one and that one. My response is 'I don't give a f*#k'
But as kick off get's closer and closer I find myself getting a little closer to the cans, butterflies start in the stomach and thinking to myself can we get 3 points, can we get off to a good start...... why oh why do I put myself through this. Guaranteed the Telly is about to take a sh(t load of abuse probably be the odd can thrown at it.... and all because I try and convince myself that I don't care. *******s. I'm starting to think I care toooooooooo much..... 😈