This is how it works if my memory is correct. Like in toxic relationships, 95 per cent is bad, very bad, its the five per cent that keeps the victim hooked, that for that time, everything seems worthwhile, even when it returns to utter hell, waiting for the 5 per cent too return.

Thats like watching Cambridge, Dominic Ball, that Watts fellow, Morrison, Morrison who assaults his opponents and the ref never sees it.

Then comes a goal, relief, enjoyment, even doing well in the league, only to be followed by disaster soon enough.

Ive broken that sillyness.

Its all crap. Same thing over and over, only the young can enjoy that trap, that money and time is easily soaked up....

for a moments joy. Winning the southern league in 1969 was event, that lasted for years, promotion to the league etc, winning the 3rd division lasted a day, that was when Claridge was around.

Those that count income win. Thats not you, its you that pays for an illusion. Winning is transient, hell is permanent.... Im still suffering nightmares......in my slumber Paddy Rayment runs out wearing amber.