Ulzanas Raid.

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This film was on recently, its a x film, no, hold that an xx. Its about Indians in the west going a bit funny, like they had been abused, one too many times, and going on a killing spree. They captured a settler, and lit a fire around his, ummm, no lets stop there.

Burt Lancaster was in it, we dont get real men as actors anymore, we get half breeds, half male half female. Anyway, as the trap closes, a trap that didnt work, he gets shot to hell, but still lived when the troops came.

The commander wanted to put him on a wagon to take him to a fort, he said no. They put up some shade, he asked for cigarrettes, and they left him to die as he asked.

Thats where United fans are now. Tired, shot to hell. Dying. The side is nothing more than a nuisance to the opposition.

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Crikey, you are correct, i hadnt thought of the Indians as myself, but its true. The only difference is that i cant crucify the club, burn genitals with the small fire burning the face, or cut out someones liver and play football with it.

Psychologically ive given it a good try.

The problem with being an Indian is that i will lose, i dont do that. In time i will win its nailed on, the club will get relegated this season, and slide into obscurity, the ground will be sold by Barry, and all will move on. The thought that Barry wont sell the ground is absurd, its worth seroius money.

More as time goes on, hes buying that, no pun intended.

Why are you on the fans side, are the sins committed against them, myself not enough?, surely if that was the County story, you would be like me.

A rebel, two fingers too immorality, cheating, corruption, i am so surprised at you. The fans are duped, blinded by stupid love, taken advantage of, abused, made fools of, humiliated, robbed.

Love does that, keeps you coming back for more, do United fans not have any sense of enough is enough? No. Even a small nod from the chairman is enough. Giving up, as you say, is common sense.

To continue supporting this is silly. Its like a trooper in 1885 abusing an Indian, and the Indian says thankyou. The fans and you are enabling a crime. Ive got the Wisbech programme but i keep putting off watching it.

In a way im an Indian, a good one trying to open eyes, the real Indian is Barry, Ulzana, experiencing orgasms at brutality.

[Psaw]

Its not worth going through your wallet, what youve got i spend in a day. Are you drunk? its 10-49.

[Psaw]

Ha, one day the bullet will miss, and that day gets closer whatever i do. Do you fear dying? theres no need, being alive is like being flayed, and you cant escape.

Not alive anyway.

[Psaw]

Thats admirable, youve actually acted on it, i havent got that far yet, actually booking it. As we both know there is a downstairs, not only in the bible but in reality, near death survivors report that there are worse places than this.

What have you got to fear, ?, i have been through my bad deeds and have asked for forgiveness, the pain i have caused gives me serious grief, i am ready to roast for that, maybe my contrition now may mean a better time who knows. We are all sinners. I dont need a god to tell me.

That is one oif the benefits of age, having time to think and repent. There is one person i will kneel to, and not complain whatever the judgemeent is. There are many though that are evil ....all the time, my sins are few, but there. All things are two edged, leaving this place means a new life, we become part of the whole, loved and cherished like a young child.

Many look forward to dying, Mary Neal didnt want to come back even though she had a family to bring up. What have you learnt??? how have you changed?, i am not the person i was at 18, no where near.

Its been a good life, much suffering, much progress, pain is like light and dark, you cant have one without the other.





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[Psaw]

Are you depressed? Including the victims of concentration camps you and they chose the life you are living, many choose too much to get through in one life. You ned to read Raymond Moody and his book life afteer life. There are many good books on the subject.

Just last night i was watching a near death video, the man was a high brow high functioning serously intelligent, doctor in the usa, he drowned, for a moment he felt the horror of dying, a moment, then carried on as usual, consciousness did not stop. He even enjoyed being swept along thinking i should be dying.

He did not want to come back. Think of it like this, that whatever your problems, you are aware, that you could have done better, many dont even have that. Next time it will be better. You cannot die, you are a child of the Universe, it created you, you are a reliant robin, becoming a roller.

I know you will express even more negativity, theres no need, you are part of the whole. You are in a priveleged position, one i wish i was in, that today you can choose what to do, you could get the eurostar and have coffee in Paris if you wanted too, drive up to Scotland and book into a posh hotel, fall in love, play poker in a casino, i cant, my life is not my own.

Book coco into a parrot hotel, catch a plane to the sun, talk to someone, about you, book a therapist, go to confession, thats therapy, go out there and have fun. Now. If you dont do that, get Moodys book. You have eternity to look forward too.

[Psaw]

The answer lies here, Raymond Moody, life after life.