Most of you blokes must be about my age which is 65, are you having problems getting older? Can you concieve of all of this coming to an end? Strangely i still expect my body to do what it did in my twenties, and its a shock when it doesnt.

For instance, i still expect to make love six times a night, now its only four. Thats a joke by the way. If i sit down for any length of time i seize up.

I have an illness that if it recurs, i have a ten per cent chance of dying, having said that, dying is an ever present threat anyway. My last ambition is to attend an open air opera in Rome, i cant do that, my partner has had two deep brain tumours removed, and i have two dogs.

I wouldnt change it, but freedom without worry woulkd be nice. Part of me looks forward to a new adventure, this life is a sh ithole. Looking back, would you live your life again? I would not.

On a less serious note, its so warm down here, flies are still buzzing, is it like that up there? I would say yes, as im sure you have dead cattle in the street. Thats a joke too.