Thank you all for your lovely and heartfelt replies.....I have read them all over and over again and they truly mean a lot to me....I have shed many tears over the past few months and today was no exception. After I posted my post today, the extended medical team all wanted to talk with me.....I now have an appointment with the oncologist tomorrow, chemo next week, an appointment with the community nurse later this week to talk about counselling and other matters such as hospice care and an appointment with care minders to start looking after my mother when I'm no longer capable of doing it. I guess reality is slowly starting to unfold. It is rather surreal, walking around with no real ill effects but knowing that something is going to happen in the next few weeks/months. Nonetheless,there is still plenty of time left to enjoy myself and my youngest son and I went out this evening to watch Spiderman:Into the Spider Verse and have dinner (yes, me and the boys are all sci-fi addicts!!) and we thoroughly enjoyed the night out together. A good win this weekend will be just the tonic we all need and to remind everyone that we're going to win the league