Beginning of the end of society?

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Great reflective and honest post Pass .

I can reconcile with some of your thoughts about work .

I'm not as tired as my job is quite physically demanding too , some days it can be manic and come 8pm through the week I'm ready for the feather , from getting up on a morning to coming home it's just shy of a 12 hour day with the travelling .

Come the weekends I couldn't be assed to do anything and the gardens got neglected a bit and I've reconnected with it these past few weeks , it's something ive always enjoyed in the past .

JLO's had to carry on working as she is a key worker but it's taken the pressure off her too at home , I've do all the chores and she walks in to her tea on the table when she comes home .

In her words you don't realise how much difference it makes .

I've even managed to get myself of some prescription tablets I'd taken for years but hadn't needed them for many years but I'd became addicted to them , you don't realise what the side effects are like till you stop which basically means you are addicted to them without knowing if that makes sense .

Learning to play the guitar is on my list too , creating my own blog and I fancy learning another language .

It's a real eye opener is this and I've hardly watched any TV , not missed anything Sport wise at all , maybe The Masters at a push .

Good for you mate, persue those aims and ambitions. I'm glad you understood my post and what I was saying. Some people just don't get it. I know exactly what you mean about being addicted to something that you don't realise. It does make sense.

Something else I didn't mention was my health and turning a blind eye to it. The amount of times I've gone to work when I shouldn't have. Working through the pain barrier and my ailments. Waking up with gout in my knee or my foot, necking some naproxen and working through it. Taking anti inflammatories or pain killers on a regular basis because some part of my body has flared up. Fecking stupid but that's how you get when you're a grafter and you're daily routine is stuck in your head. It's almost like you get institutionalized by your circumstances.

I honestly think what is the point of it all? I've worked bloody hard for 20 odd years, paid off my mortgage and can lead a comfortable life without these rigors. Do I really need to be working this hard? Stuck up a ladder in the pyssing darn rain, sometimes travelling to places like Hornsea, Whitby and Scarborough on a daily basis and getting paid feck all for 4/5 hrs travelling? Doing all this whilst telling yourself that there's a well earned holiday at the end of it all.


Don't get me wrong there is a pleasing side to my job and an element of freedom, you're not really beholden to anyone as such. Every day presents a different challenge. It also tests your thinking ability at times, It has some perks too. After doing this 20 years I couldn't honestly see myself lasting 2 minutes in an average 9 to 5 job where the supervisor is on a power trip or there's back stabbing office politics going on. It's just not me and wouldn't be something I'm able to tolerate.

It's certainly proving to be a ponderous time this lockdown