Quote Originally Posted by mickd1961 View Post
Since the latter part of the Pulis days something mentally has gone wrong with me.

It always seemed like under him that one goal was going to be our lot so I found myself being very intense in concentration during games watching us defend which we usually did really well until those final few weeks.

BUT........a goal for the opposition and my head would go and I could never see a way back.

It destroyed my love for the game and I found myself unable to enjoy watching us live or on TV........it had all just got too important and was affecting my daily mood and I felt my well-being as well.

I stopped watching us on TV the day that Koumas and Lloyd Dyer set up that late winner away at Sunderland many years ago........pressure was so intense I went for a long walk.

I stayed at work the other evening so that I could actually avoid the match which I knew my son would be watching live.

Today I went for a drive once I knew Stoke were winning because I wanted to take my mind off it until it was over.

I think it comes down to what Adrian Chiles describes a few years ago about it being the hope that kills you as an Albion fan.

I can take the relegations and the failed promotions but I can’t live with the individual pieces of hurt along the journey.

A defence mechanism I guess,I avoid the constant knowing for the 90+ minutes.

It’s sad actually and I wish there was something I could do to get over this.

On Wednesday I will go for a drive and then just live with the final result.

If anyone has suggestions as to how I sort out this mental issue I’m all ears?
Spot on Mick, so its not just us paranoid Leeds fans then? I can just about manage to watch at the ground or even on TV, but under no circumstances can I listen to a radio commentary ... Heart in mouth and bouncing out of my chest for most of a tight game... It happens to all fanatical fans i am certain. Good luck for Wednesday - I wouldn't want to endure that game,,really!