Sad for your loss. Our ginger cat died a few years back and still think about him. We said we wouldn't have another but now thinking of a new kitten. Holidays were always a problem cus we had to arrange a relative to look after him for a week or two ie feed him. Whenever we came back we would never see him as he would 'deliberately' hide in the garden somewhere for a few days to teach us a lesson for deserting him