It sounds great but it also sounds like an expensive 12 months,I don't know how old you are but it's best to leave some in the bank for a rainy day,those 18yr old Ukrainian girls will soon drain your account if they get the chance,it's sounds as though you are very insecure and I can detect a little bit of self loathing but i can help with that if you want,meet up for a non league game and sort out your problems if we can,if you've blown all of your wedge by the time that we meet the coffee and pies will be on me,we can get you through this Frank