I dont have to go to confession, firstly because i would feel obliged to give the church money i mean *****s, and that i would be wasting a priests time. I have my own religion or belief system, i dont suscribe to the masses in anything, your own belief system has a fancy name that i cant remember.

I went as a child, and had nothing to say, i had to make it up, like " i was naughty", " i said something i shouldnt".

Then i even said penance, five hail marys mostly. Its different now, being older i look back on my life and shudder, why?, its not for this place. Maturity has a way of making you look at things in a broader way, that denial is childish, being honest is the only way.

You have to feel the pain to overcome it, and i have, that in my prayers i have asked for punishment, in this life or the next, and the hardships i have had in this life is payment for another life or lives.

At the start of the catholic mass there is prayer, that states " my fault", i cant remember the prayer, if you are able to face reality, then it will be understood. Everything counts. When i compare my life to the people ive known, then my sins are a bit weak.

At least i admit to having them. And my motivation to get things right is the prospect of having to live future lives on this god forsaken pit of hell, the more i think of the past, the worse it gets. I doubt if i got anything right.

To hell with growing up.....kidding....to be an idiot is bliss, i must be doing something right.