England v Grease.

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This is as interesting as watching some tart on the BBC decluttering, or fixing tat. Or cooking, etc, im sure the BBC will do a two hour documentary on breathing soon.

Just with pictures, watching a chest rising and falling. We wont get Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton in Cleopatra. Ben Hur, Gommorrah, the unforgiven, or any new programmes as good.

TV might as well film me cleaning grease from my cooker as the England game. How about a live cam on the Ukranian front lines, a documentary on why Hollywood and popular music is dead.

Or a live camera on MPs working. Ha.

Should i put my hand into a basket that contains an Asp? Like Cleo.

What would be the difference.....death would result, from poisoning, or by boredom at Wembley.

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You are quite right, missed an open goal there. I am recovered youve got it the wrong way round, the Cambridge United pox no longer infects me, that im am not robbed, humiliated anymore.

And as for England Southgate says he wont coach for a year, as if anyone cares, that in eleven years, he failed. He doesnt get it, fame is not given, you have to win it.

In the euro final he went for a draw, not having the guts to go for a win.

Eleven years of mind crushing boredom, Southgate only interested in not losing. And talking of managers Monk is being slaughtered by United fans.

He doesnt have to prove anything with his record, a serious case of scapegoating, Barry, the board are head cases. Everything is so Cambridge......

That the same thing recurs over and over....like sick families. I have the guts to walk out.

[Psaw]

Thats an interesting analogy, that of being in love, and it is accurate. As yoiu know once a relationship is over, its just that, theres no going back. Analysing myself i do retain a need for revenge, that i want pay back, that the abuses i have suffered require action.

If i equate that to a relationship ending, do i require revenge?, no. Its an interesting difference, and pondering upon it, the difference is this.

That a relationship ending is just routine, one person changes, moves on, the other does not, no fault is involved, just well, routine.

Calling it routine is wrong, but it really is, if you can call growth routine, because it really isnt, and the ending of a relationship, friendship, is incredibly sad.

United are different, that for countless years, United have with fore thought and deliberation have separated me from my hard earned cash, that requires punishment.

And this board provides it.

Not going is not enough. If i could i would do far worse, and it does provide me with satisfaction that when United fans read this, and they do, its a guilty secret, if only one fan did not go because of me, i glory in that.

If you look at the readership, it comes in dribs and drabs, and goes up the older the post is. Its my personality, many would not do what i do.

And the future will decide, that Barry will exposed as no better than the as sholes that went before. In my mind i am in judgement, i doth the black cloth on my head as in the old days.

It is that bad. Returning is impossible.

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p.s, you watched it then, Carsley needs firing, the anti english thing is unforgiveable, after this let it happen.

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Ive just been on the gravas board, fifty people are there, posts are alost zero, the average attendance on line is 100 to 150.

The next home game will be like that. The proof of the pudding is in the eating.....DISASTER......AGAIN.

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I suspect an explanation would hurt more. All hardship are two edged, i have learnt more about myself since my divorce than i would have not, being divorced. I applied my quest for knowledge to it, even as a child i asked the man upstairs to tell me why so and so happened, that i wanted to remember, when im with him.

To do so requires you to be hurt even more, and in equal measure become aware of how wonderful you are.

The benefits of knowing are immeasurable, its like blinkers taken off. Theres more to just being divorced and being heart broken, much more.


Move on to your next hurt. The prize is immense, love and lose again, ...grow, every time its different, love does not stop, if someone says they stopped loving you they are lying, love was never there to begin withj.