Yes becoming older is about self management, not only of being older, less energy, creaking limbs etc but about wot ails you, it certainly does make you think. Ive been on magnesium for some months now and its doing me the world of good as well as iron occasionally.

Oh, and vitamin d now and then, porridge in the morning for cholesterol, and beetroot tablets now and then. I do wonder why i bother, rationally its about suffering less before dying compared to suffering.

The unfortunate side effect might be living longer. As life would have it, ive discovered, at this late stage how to reboot everything, like starting again, in computer terms wiping all off. Am i young enough to do it, do i want to?

Of what use will it be, it will be like having a shiny new car, better than the one before but with nowhere to go, or is it not like that? I suspect your neice and people like her, including me, can feel other peoples, and animals feelings. You might think thats a good thing, it is not, life becomes dreadful.

Taking animals home is a way of alleviating the pain she feels. An english teacher at school once said that if you dont know, it cant hurt, so true, being a reclusive is the only way.