Thank you for sharing. You are blessed to be able to show some of your inner feelings.

I am blessed to not have mental illness and still sharp at 61. However, sharing inner feelings is not a skill set I possess. Not a function of repressive parents or expectations of being "macho" by my family. Just kind of how I'm wired. spent some time in some violent schools so it was never limited to a single horrible event such as your pic. Hardened the resolve to survive and stand my ground. I was also blessed to be born in a peacetime era. Military service is the greatest love you can show for your country but really hardens and alters a person. It's why I deeply believe that weakness never results in peace or stability.

I do think sports, and to a lesser degree blogs, represent an escape for many of us.