Thought from your posts that you'd something going off in your life Pass. Thought it was just the passing of your dad but obviously not.
I've been through similar times as you and Ponte but managed to look after my two kids 3 days a week. I realise we all have different circumstances but one thing is common - just as Animal has already said - good times and great days are around the corner for you. I'm similar age to Animal; you'll both be fine.